Fear To Feared

When I was younger the only thing I feared was getting caught.
I feared people would catch me when I was a naught.
Then I grew to fear around a stranger.
Because just like any kid I felt I was in danger.

I became afraid of the dark where the shadows lurk.
I remember comforting myself whenever I see that smirk.
Then many years came and I was afraid of love.
Because I always ended up to be a mourning dove.

It’s so funny how I now understand what my fear meant.
I was masking some things that were a torment.

I now realize that shadow was a flesh smiling at me.
I recognized that smirk of a He.
I was able to recall why I feared love or lust.
Being a fragile person made me learn to distrust.

But I am stronger now and I am in control.
I realized the person inside me is not just a glory hole.
Now darkness fears me and what I turned out to be.
The shadow now knows I am more than just a nobody.

Now with all of the things, I am going through I will soon be free.
And he will still be a shadow in the dark trying to flee.

“Fear is the brains way of saying that there is something important for you to overcome.” ~ Rachel Huber



I’m here thinking about us,
and the things I wasn’t able to discuss
Everyday I wonder if letting you go was right,
and if I will ever be as bright.

But, I do wanna get a few things off my chest.
I still miss you more than you’ll ever guess.
My feelings for you are as present as before,
Although I know I was always a bore.

The things you told me before didn’t seem to be anything,
and now whenever I remember I feel my heart sting.
When you said the opposite attracts each other.
I now realize just how different we were from another.

Not once did I ever doubted anything you said.
And I trusted you wholeheartedly which made me dread.
Everything I hid from people came out as a surprise,
Which I believe you think were all lies.

I’m gonna cut the crap and be straight.
You were and always be great,
You have a place in my heart which is replaceable.
The relationship we had will never be erasable.

My feelings for you were and will always be solid.
I believe you had feelings even if you were a little stolid.
I wrote this because I missed you which I always do.
And missing you always leaving me feeling blue.

Now if you’re ever to read this.
Let’s just reminisce.
I just wanted to say this and let you be,
don’t message me.
(I will only cry so much)


We meet people who we share and make moments with.

They give us reasons to smile, love, and be happy.

Bringing joy, laughter, tears, and meaning to life.

Spending moments together and forgetting everything,

and feel nothing but that warm, joy, and love inside us.

Making every moment as memorable as the last,

and creating an everlasting memory.

Locking those amazing memory in our hearts and mind.

For when the moment come to past we remember.

We remember that ol’ feeling we felt,

and remembering how special those moments were.

Which now became a memory.

“People say that bad memories cause the most pain, but actually it’s the good ones that drive you insane.” ~Unknown


Special Someone

Having someone in your life who appreciate you for who you are is a grand.

Being able to tell them the most horrific story yet they’ll still stay

and find out what happens in the end of your story.

Someone who understands you and understands everything you do.

Someone who is able to tell you whether you’re right or wrong,

but still stick by your side no matter what.

Someone who can create memories with you, that’ll last a life time.

And when you know your day is incomplete without being able to talk to that person.

The one who proves you that someone in this world is willing to stay with you.

No matter how filthy your past was or how dirty your life will ever get.

When they’re not only with you when the sun shines upon you,

but also with you through your darkest hour.

Who’ll comfort you when you’re crying over the stupidest things,

but will also laugh with you for being stupid.

When they can brighten your day with their simple “hello”,

but makes you sad with their “goodbyes”.

You’ll know that person is worth something,

when you know you can’t live without them.

So I wrote this poem to show how much I appreciate a special person in my life.


“Someone who really loves you sees what a mess you can be, how moody you can get, and how hard you are to handle, but still wants you in their life.” ~Unknown


Meeting you was faith,

being with you is a chance.

I love how you’d make me smile

even just for a while.

Getting to know you was a grand,

the time spent with you was an experience.

You always know what to say.

We weren’t perfect,

but we were real.

Being around your arms is a dream,

seeing your smiles is a wish,

leaving you was a mistake.

Being with you again is hope.

“Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment ~ Buddah”


It can cut like knife,

and be buried inside you like a needle.

It can leave you scars that last.

Or scars that stays.

It’s not as harmless as it seems,

but it’s much more dangerous than you think.

Once you let it go you can never take it back.

Hundreds of apologies can’t heal a single strike.

It can drive someone mad,

or drive someone crazy.

Just simple words can make someone cry,

and it can make someone happy.

So, before you strike a word make sure you choose your words wisely.

The tongue has no bones, but is strong enough to break a heart. So be careful with your words.” ~Unknown