Unconscious

I want to express my true form,
but it’s all a violent storm.
I want to speak up,
but I’ll just blow up.

I want to let go of myself,
but it’ll just be a blight on the shelf.
I want to cry and surrender,
but everyone knows me as a mender.

Is it only me that doesn’t have an expression?
Or disguising myself is my obsession?
Do I point finger on who to blame?
Or should I cover myself in shame?

I stay away from everyone because I know my capability,
but what’s great about me is my flexibility.
I know I act detach at certain occasions,
but this is my only way of evasion.

The point is I’m always fine,
because I’m always on cloud nine.
You will always see me smile,
because I make sure my presence is worthwhile.

It’s moments like this, where I deal with emotions,
that my head starts to create commotions.
As time flies the frustration disappear,
and I find myself writing this poem right here.

“Tough times never last, but tough people do.” ~ Robert Schullner

Upside down

Yesterday was brimming with love and joy.

Now, it’s infected of animosity and indifference.

It’s ridiculous how things can abruptly differ;

How valuable moments, become a remembrance.

Still, having strong faith that it’s just a stage,

and it’ll pass over and go back in time.

Being apprehensive of where it’s heading;

Being too afraid of the fate,

Not being able to control how things would turn out.

Crying now cause of a futile relationship.

Seeing our future slowly fading away.

Our relationship went from happiness, to love, to doubt, to fights, to stress, to pain, to hate, to regrets, to memories that won’t go away.” ~ Unknown

Simple

It can cut like knife,

and be buried inside you like a needle.

It can leave you scars that last.

Or scars that stays.

It’s not as harmless as it seems,

but it’s much more dangerous than you think.

Once you let it go you can never take it back.

Hundreds of apologies can’t heal a single strike.

It can drive someone mad,

or drive someone crazy.

Just simple words can make someone cry,

and it can make someone happy.

So, before you strike a word make sure you choose your words wisely.

The tongue has no bones, but is strong enough to break a heart. So be careful with your words.” ~Unknown

Lonely Heart

Those days where you just feel so lonely

When everything hurts just by looking at it.

Where you just wanna drop everything and cry.

When you wish people would come and vist,

Or the lifeless room would just be filled with joy.

When you know your lonely heart cant take another sorrow,

Where you want the whole entire world to pause,

Or better yet fast forward to the time where you feel no pain.

Those days where physical pain sounds much better than emotional pain,

but knowing you have to keep your head held up high even though inside you is falling into pieces.

When you’re the only reason why everything else is not crashing down…

When you know the reason to be strong are for those you love,

Showing no slight negative emotions.

Not knowing what to tell anybody if they find out…

Trying to battle everyday with a huge smile,

and just ignoring everything during the day,

but a facing them again at night..

“Some people think that to be strong is to never feel pain. In reality the strongest people are the ones who feel it, understand it, and accept it.” ~Unknown

Mistakes

Rarely done or not,

People seems to focus on mistakes.

The tiniest ones are held against you eternally.

Apologies are said to be accepted,

But the action shown is unbelievable.

The kindness ones are to be pitied.

For the deed they do are just actions,

And the mistakes they do are seen as sins.

The fools are meant to be punished.

For the mistakes they do are just actions,

And the deed they do are seen as power.

Oh what world do we live in?

If no one can define the true meaning of mistakes.

“Everyone makes mistakes in life, but that doesn’t mean they have to pay for them the rest of their life. Sometimes GOOD people make BAD choices. It doesn’t mean they’re bad… It means they’re HUMANS!” ~ Unknown

Anger

Rage, violence, and unthinkable plots

can hurt people in our life.

Whenever we let anger,

take the best of us.

We tend to say things we regret.

Our minds plot unthinkable events

knowing it’ll hurt someone.

We can control it,

but the fact that we let

emotions take over us.

It seems impossible to do.

We get violent knowing

it’ll satisfy our anger’s needs.

We say or let words out that

will stab people,

not being able to control the things we say.

Also the reason why  we say

“I hate you,” deeply. Thinking we mean it.

“Holding onto anger is like drinking poison, and expecting the other person to die.” ~ Buddha