Fear To Feared

When I was younger the only thing I feared was getting caught.
I feared people would catch me when I was a naught.
Then I grew to fear around a stranger.
Because just like any kid I felt I was in danger.

I became afraid of the dark where the shadows lurk.
I remember comforting myself whenever I see that smirk.
Then many years came and I was afraid of love.
Because I always ended up to be a mourning dove.

It’s so funny how I now understand what my fear meant.
I was masking some things that were a torment.

I now realize that shadow was a flesh smiling at me.
I recognized that smirk of a He.
I was able to recall why I feared love or lust.
Being a fragile person made me learn to distrust.

But I am stronger now and I am in control.
I realized the person inside me is not just a glory hole.
Now darkness fears me and what I turned out to be.
The shadow now knows I am more than just a nobody.

Now with all of the things, I am going through I will soon be free.
And he will still be a shadow in the dark trying to flee.

“Fear is the brains way of saying that there is something important for you to overcome.” ~ Rachel Huber

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Pride

Sitting here alone,

looking out the window.

Letting my thoughts dance around.

Thinking how things would’ve turn out,

if I just have the courage to drop my pride.

Letting time run away from my palms.

Each moment I stare out here,

and think about what to do.

Is a moment gone that I can be with you.

Tears visits me,

while confusion filled my thoughts.

Decisions to make,

and looking at results.

So I sit here alone,

to wait for myself.

For the minute I gather up courage

to drop my pride,

and be with you again.

“It’s okay to lose your pride over someone you love. Don’t lose someone you love over your pride.” ~Unknown